Need My Drug

What's that shit called when drug addicts go cold ? I wouldn't call this rehab 'cause I'm in the same place I've always been. But I wake up at 3 a.m. and I'm shaking. I can't sleep and i'm sweating and I wish I could shoot up a small dosage of you into my veins for a quick fix. So i search all my photos and maybe even some writing too, anything that will just give me a piece of you. But I'm Still shaking and I'm still sweating and well i just....... 

I guess this this is what it feels like not having you .........

They say if you overdose on drugs there's a 72% chance of death. But they never talk about the damages of under dosing, cause that's what I am suffering from and symptoms are breathe taking...... 

Highest Highs

Lowest Lows 

I need to get myself fix  - "TASS" 

Don't Teach me .

I don't need someone to teach me how to love in a perfect manner, 
I don't believe there is such a thing. 
I don't share my body temporarily, 
I give it away. 
My waist for your hands 
My neck for your lips
My chest for your head 
Cause I have heard there are 6,000 ways to say I Love You 
all in different languages.
And a million ways to show it, without words. 
I don't believe any of them are old fashioned. 
So, do't  hide your face when I read your eyes, mind and soul. 
You have found eternity in another human being 
after many will say it's impossible. 
You were put on this earth to combine souls, 
with whomever your your heart attaches to. 
There is no such thing as loving improperly, 
its only souls who have never met and touched. 

I can go from life to ashes!

I want to build a home inside your four walls and want to live inside you. I want no holes for ventilation cause there is no escaping from you. I want you to consume me, I want to be consumed by you.  

I want you more than my next breathe of air, I want to breathe you. I want you, in full, in whole, in your eternity. I want you more then I want anything in my life. 

You are art to me, a masterpiece. You are  amazing within your self and a venus dipped in gold. You are my starry night and a sunny day. If I walked the footsteps of my idol I would cut of all my wishes to just get you. You can have my heart and my soul as far as you know that I was just built for you. 

What I am really trying to say what love is what you are to me.

I will be reduced to ashes for you!!!

Ohh, 

I am reduced to ashes for you. 

"Romeo and Juliet" no we prefer "WE"

Let me start by saying that the gods of all things domestic have blessed me with a string of pretty awesome Friend. I realize that is not the case for most people: I see you all with your passive aggressive subtweets and comparison stories.  But be that as it may, sometimes you just find yourself in a full fledged  energy HAHA YOU GET IT? Anyway. These are the things that happen when you live with your best friend(s), and when doing so actually makes you closer, not wanting to burn each other at the stake over borrowed pair of shoes and a "you eat i ate" fights for mangoes. 

We have become a wing person for each-other. No matter the occasion,we are the go-to-human when backup is needed in social situations we would rather scratch chalkboards than deal with. Our lives together has become one big running inside joke and everybody else is on. the. outside. We keep laughing over the same stupid things over again every time we think of it. We get into really long conversations that we don’t want to interrupt by having to go to the bathroom so one holds on really hard & we continue talking. Lol, what’s personal space? We start bickering with one another like a married couple because we I think, actually aren’t afraid to just throw it all on the table which for the others living with us find it amazingly shocking. Us both have swiftly allowed all concepts of social courtesy to go out the window, sorry for two others to bear with our loud pitched tones and devilish laughter.We would  write “can I borrow…Can I get” texts for courtesy because we know the answer is obviously yes, as long as we are not asking for over personal possessions "Lovers". New comers don't have to get in with one, but to get in with "US". And no invitation goes without the other one, if it is like going out or cleaning the house. Two is always a company as they say. We have weird but absolutely awesome routines like getting up in the morning seems to be for going to work for others but ours is a chat over breakfast & reaching home while still texting each other till we manage to ope the door to have a face to face chat. "Every minute counts", we were taught. We become the best. gift. givers. because we know exactly what one wants, seeing as we know everything we own and everything one complains of "I don’t have this".Saves time of not wasting it over thing what to get cause "Time is money", we have learned.We give the best advice because we saw the whole situation unfold.We purposefully buy/cook food to share. Complaining to eachother (or about them) becomes about 40% of our day. Love ‘em anyway though cause we are gurls. We have sync your nap schedules to spend on communicating more. "Communication realizes stress" we have experienced. We have now an incredible ability to tune the hell out.Our favorite part of the day is coming home and hearing about the meaningless, stupid things that happened during the day that we somehow find hilarious and interesting and people beside us useless topic of conversation. But that's what we are"Being Human" we have been tagged as. We text  when we’re coming home, because that is essentially the unwritten #1 rule which has been made between us now.  Bodily functions aren’t embarrassing anymore, in fact, we either completely ignore them or get into imitating others contests like the classy adults we are. We just rock to the same groove. If one of us is like, “hey wanna get pizza tonight?” the other’s like “oh yeah def that’s exactly what I wanted to eat too.” " Similar liking makes us bring close", thats what we understand as law of nature. If you’re one of the lucky few like us, the greatest gift this life has given us is a friend with similar style and the same shoe size.We’re not afraid to tell when one needs to clean something up, and that’s probably what makes it work best… we’re not afraid of hurting each other’s feelings so we’re just open about our feelings. "Transparency helps grow together stronger",  That's what we have been doing. We fight for sleeping together and and people might not think of us as straight, but we love the us for infinite. 

So, 

Just be the patient one with us cause we scream, shout, sleep over, share & care which to us is normal and weird in your eyes.