I Promise I will never give up & I will Die yelling and Laughing.

She is romantic but not hopeless. If anything she had hoped for too much. She Hoped for laughter and Forgiveness. She hoped for that plane ticket, and getting tattoo she'd always talked about getting it done. She hoped her wounds would heal. And everyday she left things undone, so she hoped for more hopes. But she never gave up. She is only hard to understood by those who sound like everyone else. Her smile still points to the stars, But everything that glitters is not gold. She is not bitter her words are just not sugar coated. May me she took too long to decide who she actually wanted to be. She is dressing her wounds with everything she finds to be beautiful. She has learned to protect herself. She is wanting to believe cause everything cannot be so good to be true. She knew for her everything this world needed would come to life with her real smile and overwhelming love for the One. Somewhere between what she survived and what she was becoming, was exactly where she was mean to be. Her Past years has stolen so much that it is practically criminal. The world told her to fix herself first. But what if she is not meant to be alone? What if an isolated life is when she is at her worst ? May be it takes more bravery for her to seek forgiveness and surrender a part of her to whom she always loved, then to try and do it all whatever she wants to by herself.   Surely she believed in love but if you ask her "why" she couldn't tell you. May be she loved cause it was about whom she loved. the most perfect things can't stay in one place for too long. the moon shines in stages, the tide must subside and eventually the sun will shine for her. She believes in love because she believes in herself. If she cared about you at some point, chances are she will always care about you. if she loved you and you are no longer with her she has learned to love your memory. Do you know the kind of bravery it takes to go through the change and stay true when she is still unsure about the outcome of her change. She has a picture in her head of what she wants and till now she was bending everyone to fit them in her frame, but now she has realized that she is and artist and she hold the brush. Only with her steady hand and keen passion she can paint her future. Please don't rush until she has complete. She will prove to be have a master piece while she is making this. She is no princess and her life is no fairy tale but she is real. Again she is not perfect but she is magic. She is different, she loves and cries too hard. But believe me she has limitations tooo, don't know how far she will take this one life she is given.Who will be with her till the end is her challenge. Its not just about making her laugh but to understand why she smiles. She has learned to laugh when she wanted to cry. I loved the way she survived, Survival looked good on her. There are no dark marks under her eyes, May be they are deep inside. But I like the way she looks through them and laughs at life. She has learned to do it gracefully. She has walked over glass and through fire, and she still smiles cause she is spreading it to others and doesn't want others to see what she has been through. She contradicts herself, cause she is strong and weak both at the same time. She has lived and reborn a few times by now. She knows what it is like to loose everything and still live for others. She has learned and has managed. She breaks down at times and she always confidently says " Don't you worry, I will be ok" .... She got to be ok, she ain't has any choice. She is standing for something. She is standing for someone. I want to thank her for surviving. I thank her cause now I know someone was willing to stand for with her tooo. 

She is no one but, she is myself. I know her better now and she is helping me educate about her, cause past has taught her and now she learned to trust if not all but at least in herself. I love myself and she is within me. I promise her not to let her fail not to let her quit. She is determined with genuine intention. She will win. I will win. I thank myself. I thank universe in making me what I am.