My Tall Shadow

To my best friend in the world, I want you to know how blessed I am to be your friend.

There are so many things in my life that I am proud of, with you I have rejoiced them a little more. While, my life is full of imperfections & like a roller-coster ride.  You have always ensured that you accompany me through those rides and tides. 

You are the calm to the stormy days. You bring stability to my chaos. You light up my life during my most trying times and you pushed me to take one more step when I am on the verge of giving up.

You are my unwavering certainty in this wildly unpredictable world.

I may not know what will happen in a few years or what life will show up, but I know you will always be around. I may not have many friends who I am close with but I know you are the only one I truly need.

I sometimes fail and you inspire me to get up and try once again, you make me so proud to be your friend.

To my best friend in the world, I am much happier today because of you.

You see the best in me even at my worst. You believe in me when I feel hopeless. You build me up when I hit rock bottom.

Thank you for being my source of comfort when I need you the most. You talk to me until my frown face smiles and I start laughing at your silly jokes. You stay on the phone with me for hours just cause we have time to kill, and you accompany me to all the places I wanted to go as together we are always fun. You make me realize I deserve so much more.

Thank you for being my pillar of support when I am at my weakest. You cared for me when I was sick. You are the one you have come in my life and never left. 

In the face of failure and adversity, you reassure me that I am so much stronger than that. You willingly render me with all your help and you promise to overcome my struggles with me together.

To my best friend in the world, I am grateful that you believe in our friendship and want us to be friends forever.

With you, our friendship has withstood the test of time and distance. It has weathered many hardships and overcome all odds.

Even through both of us are no longer the same people as we were when we first met; our friendship has remained the same. With you, everything is easy. We bond over the things that we love. We argue and fight over insignificant and unimportant things. We makeup and never stay angry at each other for long.

We are each other’s constants in this ever-changing life. We are sidekicks and partners in crime, forever having each other’s back. We are more than family.

To my best friend in the world, thank you for coming into my life and changing it in the best way possible.

For making so many unforgettable memories together and celebrating with me at every important milestone. For traveling with me on this crazy journey called life. For encouraging me to leave my fears behind and chase after my dreams. For healing me in hard times and showing me that happiness is possible as long as I want it. For loving me unconditionally no matter what.

For being you- my best friend

Attach : Detach

She is like that.

Attached to the most inanimate of things.

A toothbrush. The cap of a lost ball pen. Sticky notes which have lost their ability to stick. Her broken hair bands. Dysfunctional earphones. Dried nail paint.

Her ipad and iPhone is a mess. Videos she would never watch. Songs she could never dance to, hum, sing aloud in the shower, enjoy on one of her better days, be moved when listening to on one of her worse days, or dedicate to people she loved or disliked. Movies that never meant anything to her. Photographs which weren’t memories anymore. Story's and articles she never completed. E-books she never found the time to read. Games which never, ever made any sense to her. She had them installed at some time, she can’t remember now. But she never questioned why she ever did things that wouldn’t matter to her or things she wouldn’t be able to fathom with her best analytical self. She knew she was that way.

Incapable of rejecting, hating, deleting, disposing of.

Always, always holding on to. Grabbing more than she could ever hold within her flesh, skin, bones and a heart without fences. Spreading her being to accommodate everyone and everything until it rips her apart.  lifetimes of failures, pain, hurt and incessantly being spent by insensitive people later, she later realized how important a filter is. How invincible a fence around her heart would be. So she got herself a filter. Strict. Strong. Disciplined. Dangerous. Fully functional. 

She turned into a self-bodyguard. Never allowing certain things or people into her vicinity. Those with the capacity to hurt or upset her, disrespect, discourage or decode her vulnerability to being attached. People who blurred her vision of life. She has a plan now. 

Reject. Hate. Delete. Dispose. Let Go. Filter. 

She is doing better now. Her iPad and iPhone is still a mess. She is still attached to the most inanimate things. Those things never made her skin glow with self-doubt and self-pity at nights. 

She knows how her filter functions: keep until it hurts the heart. Then, detach. 

Let there be space in your togetherness.